• Mon, 09:34: Not a big fan of Mondays, but this one is starting off extra rough. I was startled awake, & nearly threw up in my CPAP mask. Looked at the time on my work phone & had multiple issues / messages already waiting for me. Long story short (too late), it's going to be a long day...

Anyone that know me, knows that I am not a Monday kind of ( Read more... )

• Fri, 07:06: How I know my family is trying to kill me: PT 1 of 2 I've been up most of the night with a migraine. At 6 AM I set my alarm for 8:30A. My family woke me at 6:53. ☹ https://t.co/ZqFAzPSnXW
• Fri, 07:09: How I know my family is trying to kill me: PT 2 of 2 I could try to fall back to sleep, but my mind will want to check the clock every ( Read more... )

• Mon, 03:18: I hate being awake, and alone, in the middle of the night. I know I could sleep if I was laying in bed, next to Kar… https://t.co/JY7ajXqKxW


I hate being awake, and alone, in the middle of the night. I know I could sleep if I was laying in bed, next to Karen, with her holding me in her arms. But I don't want to wake her... 😞😴 pic. ( Read more... )

• Sun, 04:53: https://t.co/GpcNmYZNK7
• Sun, 04:53: It's really scary in there, some nights... https://t.co/VW04fATb85
• Sun, 06:03: I WISH I MAY, I WISH I MIGHT, GET SOME FREAKIN' SLEEP TONIGHT! https://t.co/NYm7Qn7sz9


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- D.Mullen (@digzmania) August 12, 2018

It's really scary in there, some nights... pic.twitter.com ( Read more... )

• Thu, 04:58: There's nothing quite like waking up from a disturbing dream, only to find that your face and t-shirt are soaked from a cold sweat.

• Wed, 08:00: Had a very restless and fitful night's "sleep." And I should have set my alarm for 30 minutes later, and possibly g… https://t.co/nUaxwGbO7d


Had a very restless and fitful night's "sleep." And I should have set my alarm for 30 minutes later, and possibly gotten just a bit more sleep. 😟 pic.twitter.com/W0BuqaXJdo
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• Fri, 03:15: I'm awake. 4 mind wrenching nightmares is quite enough for one night. Guess 4 hours sleep will have to hold me over… https://t.co/Ho4VR7I5m6


I'm awake. 4 mind wrenching nightmares is quite enough for one night. Guess 4 hours sleep will have to hold me over for a day or two. pic.twitter.com/u8tzFGVkxF
- UrsaSolus (@ursasolus) October ( Read more... )

I don't want to alleviate my pain at the expense of causing anyone else to have to suffer the way that I am.

Projecting my faults and lonliness onto others, the ones that I truly care about, is unfair to them.

But, I MUST alleviate this pain... somehow.
I have to admit, that the majority of me wants to wallow in it. Suck it in. But, there is ( Read more... )

Much of this world's greatest art, writing, and music was inspired by inner turmoil and pain. Even more so than love ( Read more... )

Immediately after posting the previous journal entry, I started shaking while sitting at my desk and broke down in sobbing tears. the harder I tried not to cry, the harder I sobbed. I couldn't stop ( Read more... )